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Sometimes… I think about you sometimes.
When my world is in chaos,
I bring back all those happy memories;
As if you were here back again with me.

Sometimes… I dream about you sometimes.
When I don’t want to live in this world,
The cruelty and selfishness diminish.
And I find comfort in your memory.

Sometimes… I miss you sometimes.
When I feel alone in the sea of faces,
And I tried to find yours in them;
It felt like a little glimpse can heal me again.

Sometimes… I wish you back sometimes.
When everyone is leaving.
When everyone finds their way home.
But oftentimes, I told my self you have
no heart of coming back.
And my sometimes will always remain as sometimes.

Ohhhh… those days.

The Greatest Decision Ever

Locks of Curl

I cut my hair, I cut it twice;
To satisfy my awful vice.
I cut it up and the reason is you.
Because you’re leaving and I’m so blue.

The locks of curl I set aside,
It symbolizes my heart’s divine.
It will remind me of someone like you.
That there’s a person that I care and that is you.

Frustrated with this little sacrifice;
But it’s the way of my soul suffice.
I still feel chills run down my spine,
Whenever I think of the time our fingers entwine.

A Little Light During My Dark days

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How to Unlove Thee

How to unlove thee? Help me count the ways… I can’t unlove thee since I have loved from the depth and breadth and height I am so drowned with my feelings, the end of the tunnel is out sight. Your …

The Ever Infamous LOVE

They say first love never dies. But I tell you, because of this so-called first love I was dying everyday for the last 4 years. (but thank God! I am better now!)

Falling in love for the first time is the hardest and most risky falling you’ll ever have. Falling from your seat is much bearable than the pain you’ll get with a broken heart. Physical wounds would only take days to mend but mending a heart is a different story.

I don’t know with you but with me, I fell so hard and I was having a difficulty of standing up and moving on. The unrequited love was too much for me. It’s like a ten-pound weight chained into your heart and you can’t get it off. They say crying would help ease the pain but it just swell my eyes and I feel completely numb, physically but not emotionally and mentally.

When you feel too much pain and can’t even get a hold of yourself, every single feeling of hunger, sleepiness, disease or something that can be physically felt were all gone. And you can only feel the pain throbbing in your heart.

Especially when it was your first time falling and no one is there to catch you. Tragic right? Real life is far fetch from fairy tales we’ve seen in TV. That when a Prince would kiss you after sleeping for hundred of years or slipping a shoe would give you a happily ever after.

They did not show us the ups and down. They did not show us about Princesses arguing with the smallest things with their prince and how they make up. How love does not have only one trial to surpass but a lifetime of obstacle for us to overcome.

I don’t want you to be scared and give up on love. I am only telling that love is painful but beautiful at the same time. There are lucky ones. The ones who fell in love with only one person their whole life. No break ups, no flings and no feeling of falling out.

So when you found a person who gives you butterfly or what I call stomach acids churning, enjoy it. Heartbreaks takes a lot of time to heal and be back on your feet again it cannot compare to the joy it brought you when you were in love.

Someday, you will look back to the times you felt terrible and depressed, and find it somewhat funny how you were like that when there is so much to enjoy in life.

I really am happy now, still single but contented. 🙂

If there is something…

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I couldn’t see the end of the tunnel,
The finish line of the race.
I couldn’t see the stars shining,
The sun rise in a daze.
I couldn’t see the ending,
The main point of my life.
I couldn’t make myself happy
So I’m thinking it is suicide.
I come to the point of existing and not existing
at the same time
I am now in the phase of living
A walking lifeless being
If there is something…
Something I could hold on to..
Something that could put the dazzle and passion in my eyes.
If there could be something.

Lost Soul

When your heart starts to harden..
That’s the most dangerous thing to happen…
You feel lost and don’t know what to do.
You made everybody miserable because you want them to feel it too..

Everything was dull, black and white
No purpose, no meaning… The end of life.
I wish I could make all these thoughts go away.
My mind is the one who is making me astray.

I can almost count my heartbeat everyday.
I know I don’t mind but still I continue to pray…
For the Lord to take me back and hold me close
If I cant get into His light I might take this dose.