A Sad Billet Doux

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Tears cause by bitterness I painfully shed
And now my heart is sinking low
Longing for the love I’ve known a long time ago

Memories keep flashing, flooding my head
A tingling pain that slowly made my body dead
Shot of joy of yesterday’s moment
I want to experience it again with happiness and excitement

Sparkling eyes with fireworks at the scene
Hands entwine held by a love so saccharine
A billet doux with a scent of hope
Slide in my soul like an everlasting slope

Sepia colored moments are hard to hold
The love I’ve known long time ago is now cold
The warmth and tenderness of his heart I miss
But sad to say, I’ll end this poem without his bliss.

Unwavering Love

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God is the one who knows my pain,
Released me from the agony’s chain.
Renewed my heart that once was broken,
And love me no matter what happen.

His love is unwavering
His mercy never fails
Without Him I am nothing
Without Him my ship wouldn’t sail.

My heart is longing to see His face,
And to thank him with all His grace.
Bless me, oh God, and forgive all of my sins.
I love you Lord, please make me wise and keen.

Bitter Wishes

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I wish I don’t have a heart, it aches too much.
I wish I don’t have hair that I can brush.
I wish I don’t have a mind that can think twice.
I wish I don’t have a voice that can sing with precise.

I wish I don’t have the eyes that can see my own misery.
I wish I don’t have the ears that can hear my agony.
I wish I don’t have the nose that can smell my defeat.
I wish I don’t have the hands that can touch what I forfeit.

I wish I don’t have bones that can stand the pain.
I wish I don’t have a flesh to feel the weakness I gain.
I wish I don’t have the feet to lead me to my destruction.
I wish I don’t have the leadership to ease my obligation.

I wish I don’t have the tears that flows like a river.
I wish I don’t have the smile that can be a deceiver.
It breaks my heart to wish all this…
But if this results to my bliss,
Then I’ll continue to say I wish… I wish.

Living So Empty

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I walk in the streets half-hearted and unknown
With possibilities lingering in my head are shown
Wanted to be free from this formidable clone
The happiness that everyone seek are gone and blown

I wander from place to place to find my serenity
Chasing dreams one after the other to reach integrity
Knowing that all this things are finite and temporary
Can’t stop the desire and discontent of my humanity

Grief-stricken, I lost the battle of satisfaction
I want more, more of this world’s illusion
No… I can’t stop my own hallucination
Because freedom itself is a self denial prison

Change the world, making it bright.
Eliminating those pain and sore in my sight.
Never ending chase of what I thought is right
I  never realize that dwelling in darkness, I loose sight of the light

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New Found Hope

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Meaningless.
Hopeless.
No purpose to live
That’s what I thought of my life.

Unwanted.
Rejected.
Loving alone
Forever alone…

Efforts were blown
Mistakes are known
Lost purpose to live
No joy to give

But everything change
I am changing
I thought of these troubles
Like a game so challenging

Almost a year of being
A daughter of a great King
Who gave me salvation And everlasting peace
Renewed my life again and gave me bliss

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