Feeling Unloved? Remember God loves you to the nth power.

http://41.media.tumblr.com/tumblr_mbf4prAG5y1qdaq7jo1_500.jpgYou would wonder why nth power? You would always hear it in mathematics or related to that subject. It means an unspecified ordinal number, usually the greatest in a series of values or simply put to the utmost or extreme.
Isn’t amazing? Your Father in heaven loves you very much and He even commanded His angels concerning you to guide you in all your ways, they will lift you up in their hands, so that you will not strike your foot against a stone (Psalms 91:11-12). Get that? That’s how much God loves you that He’s not going to hurt you even a bit.
So when you feel being so unloved keep this in mind, God loves you with an everlasting love. If you feel that the world is against you, run to Him and cry out when things are not going easy, but always believe that He will always there for you.
Never lose faith and hope that everything will come to pass. Celebrate in His love for He alone can satisfy the needs of your heart. Take heart for all the troubles, it is there to strengthen you.
But I’m warning you, the enemy will try to make you remember of the things that hurt you, sadness will snatch you from God’s power. Tears will blur the sight of joy and harsh words will deafen you from the promising words of God. Lies will mute you from speaking the truth. Hurt will cause you to become idle and will dishonor God.
However, all you need to do is set aside the hurt of being unloved. Forgive the ones who hurt you, but never forget the lesson they teach you. Love until it hurts no more. The kind of love Jesus taught us to give.
And last but not the least, whenever you feel unloved, rejected and ignored. Remember to whom you are belong and you are love to the nth power!

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To The Person Who I Thought Was Really The One

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You are the man I loved since the moment I saw you and sadly until now even though you already walked away. I really thought you are the one for me, the one I could be with forever. But forever is impossible between us.

I know I have my faults too why you fall out of love. But I will try to explain myself. Behind all those shooing was a heart that wanted you to stay and annoy me still. Behind all those opposition I made every time you make an argument was really a heart that wanted to be with you and talk to you and argue about silly things.

Behind those tired eyes was a heart longing for you to give me rest on your shoulders and assure me that everything will fall into place. Behind those shrugged of annoyance was a heart that wanted to be understood.

But when the day you said that you don’t love me anymore I feel like my color has taken away from. Everything turned dull and blurry. It felt like a lost a sense of living. I lost the will to live. I cried all night trying to numb myself from the pain of your words. What am I supposed to do now? How about those promises we made together? Am I going to do it alone?

I cried in front of my Mom and was about to say how I lost you but I just said that my grade is about to fail (which is true because I was so distracted thinking how we are falling a part and studying is difficult at those times). Mom said that I should focus more and she said that I can do a lot better.

I tried to cheer myself up and did everything to make my life even busier so that I will not think about you. I read a lot of books and sleep and eat more. Showing everyone that I can be happy without you. And when you are being teased by the girl you love now I just smile and say I don’t care. But I care A LOT!

Sorry if I really got mad and say hurtful things to you. That was because I was corrupted by my pain and anger and my pride cannot fathom the fact that you will never be mine anymore. But you know what? Every time I saw you my heart wanted to burst and I wanted to scream because of the pain.

Whenever I hear your name with our common friends I feel like crying and misses you even more. I don’t know if you are able to read this but I bet you can’t because you don’t care anymore. I just wanted you to know that I love you always. I may seem busy with everything and my hands are full with activities at school but I never missed a single second to miss you.

It hurts me when they say you are like my underling, the one who is always tailing behind. No… I don’t want them to talk about you like that because you are the person I look up to. You are like my Vanilla Star.

But now you changed. You didn’t keep your promises. Do you want me to remind you of them?

-You said I will never be an old maid because you’re going to marry me.
-You said you you are willing to wait
-You said that you will never get tired of me even though I am so annoying to the maximum level
-Lastly, when I thought everything will feel apart you said to me that you will never ever be gone by my side

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But even though you changed I don’t know why I continue to love you. I am not asking you to come back. I already know that will never happen. I will just ask you to be back to the guy I once knew. The one who brought me closer to God. Who’s mouth is clean from profanity. The one who would make up with my craziness and joke that is out of this earth but it’s funny anyway (for me). The one who is sensitive enough of how others would feel if they are being bullied.

You never stand up for what is right anymore. You only stand up for those bad influenced friend of yours.

I hope if you ever read this you will realize I never change. The only one who changed was the one who gave up the love he started and memories that were thrown away. And my fault? I just watched you made all those changes and understand that some people really change and to let them see that you really love them you will love those changes. And I did.

I am starting to move on now not because I want to but I need to because you already did. Again I just wanted you to know that even you changed, I loved those changes and will love you until this pain in my heart will fade.

May God bless you! And I love you forever and always…

Please tell me how to move on….

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Days turned into months…. Now months turned into a year.

A year spent grieving to someone I love and lost. The one I care about but not given a chance to make him see what he really meant to me. I don’t want to let him go, but he’s already gone.

I’m trying to move on, get back in track and resume my life the way it used to be before I met him. The sparkle in my eyes are now being replaced by a sad lonely gaze.

Everyone is saying I should move on and forget. But all I did is forgive him for what he have done and continue to love him despite of those things.

I know I don’t have that cute smile, silky long hair and fair complexion like the girl he now love. But one thing he did miss, I never looked on appearance or even the personality. As long as I love you these things are not important. Even though he changed so much for a year and a half we are together, I accepted those changes and love him even more.

I know he didn’t realize I am a keeper. I believe I am. But I know that if letting him go will make him happy, I will choose to be alone and hurting than seeing him like that with me. Now my biggest problem is I am trying to forget but couldn’t.

Girls would know…

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Every month I pay you a visit,
Once or twice to measure your limit.
How long can your sanity bear?
Try to stop me and beg but I wish not to care.

I will torture you until you cry in pain.
You will wish you were born different, wishing will not make you gain,
To make me stop and go away,
I will be with you until your labor day.

Writhe or suffer, I wish you do both
Until you are angered and filled with your very loathe
The one you love will misunderstand you
Mood swings will make you blue.

I am sorry dear, I will be your constant companion.
Despise me? I don’t need your opinion.
My name starts with D and ends with A,
If you’re a girl you know my visiting day.

Then…Now…Someday.

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Back then, I was happy
The feeling that makes you strong
Made you forget all of your vulnerability

Now, I am depressed
Imprisoned by the feeling
I really wish I could suppressed

Someday, I hope I could be happy
Will no longer feel the depression,
the suppression and my vulnerabilty

Past, Present, Future. I wish I could go back
Or I wish I could fast forward time.
But sad to say, I couldn’t even exchange it
for millions and millions of dimes.